Recent loss of my job made me rethink my life. What do I really like? Who am I? Who I want to be? What makes me happy? What goals do I want to achieve in life? It felt like somehow I have lost myself somewhere on my way from the 20s to 30s.
I craved for the answers long before I lost my job. I knew I needed to be stopped somehow. I needed a change in my life. Being a part of downsizing at our company felt as a relief in some weird sense. It enabled me to do just that – stop and think. Suddenly, I had time. A lot of time. So, I started doing what I always liked doing: reading, and creating: exploring different kinds of art and enjoying simple life pleasures. For the past 10 years I was so immersed in my work that it somehow killed my creativity. Although, the funny thing is – I thought my work WAS creative. Then, having a piece of mind and all the time for myself, creative ideas of how to spend my free time started popping up. And in the middle of all these ideas fighting for my attention, I noticed there was one idea, sitting quietly in the corner, glancing at me shyly and I recognized it at once … It was my childhood dream: the idea of becoming a writer. I was sobered up immediately. I knew it: I want to be a writer! I always wanted. That was the reason I studied journalism and English language in the first place. It came as close to writing as I thought possible. It might sound as a cliche, because so many people want to become writers, but the difference is that I believe it will happen. Probably even sooner than I think.
One of the first steps towards my goal was of course: renewing my blog. I started it a few years ago, but due to the lack of time and inspiration, I never really took it seriously. The times have changed now. The blog is now a part of the bigger picture. It is a tool for me to achieve more writing discipline and practice my writing skills. However, I want also to inspire people, hence I chose the name: “Good Karma”. It has little to do with the actual spirituality, although the concept of Karma is very close to me, and I do believe that everything we do, comes back to us (good and bad things). “Karma” is also a shortened from “Karmelina” (my real name) and some people actually call me that (I admit, I didn’t like it at the beginning, but the nickname started to grow on me). And “good” is also a value I value. I am a firm believer that you should “think good, do good and be good” in order to receive the same back. So in my blog, I will try to focus mostly on positive aspects of life, since one of my goals is also to become a better person than I am.
If you want to read more from me, check my old blog GoodKarma.
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